July is half ...
I do not even realize.
I lost time to a thousand things are in balance and do not know what to do.
finished (and I might add, with a happy grin and comprehensive, "FOREVER") high school (fucking) with a nice 94/100 I do not know what to do ... Cagliari
I see for the university, I would like to live there, but it bothers me that you spend all that money for me.
Moreover, the dormitory scares me (who is? Those who do not What? if I am not slamming me up with a good kick in the ass than you have left only the bone), I would really go with Oly and Darsh to live there, but it bothers me xi money ... I'm afraid not do a fucking thing ... not to be good. I travel some, but not exactly the best in a home with two brothers who do nothing but scream, in which there is no room to stay silent on their own ....
already have a lowest level of attention, let alone in a house where you enter the room without even knocking, in which everything belongs to everyone (and above all my things are all =__=) where there is the loud music in Fuck the other tenants who hate us and you do not understand the words "serious study ".....
as I do, what shall I do?
the future scares me because it finally is coming.
But coming so .. like .. SHUUUBDHL (subtle), and ready to explode in his hands at any time.
Why I have this negative view of things? Shit, I'm a pessimist believes.
Yet often invoke the value of "RELAX"!
There is the band head before essersela route, but I do everything to break it alone =__=;
I do not like things hanging ;______;
I wish I could enjoy the summer, my last carefree summer without having to worry about anything.
Eating, sleeping, sex, sea and leather .... nothing more ...
Summer started in the name of a thousand things stupid and annoying, thoughts, and my concerns, choices, appointments and hospital visits that I made and I'll have to redo it .... not me = __ =
above all this love, random, confused, intangible, uncertain.
hate uncertainty.
Yesterday I felt heavy and less need for me to walk by the sea, alone. In silence and in darkness, under a sunset of wind and made strange reflections on clouds stretched ... fishing alone, arriving by car, in silence, with a few songs on the radio.
I wanted to have a license for laziness that I did not take last year and this year.
laziness laziness laziness ....
Summer always makes me understand this effect and that in the end are never happy.
It hurts me so much.
But ... after all ... ... it's almost beautiful.
Maybe we look back in a fall, the memories dissolving like sugar in tea, sitting on a hardwood floor in a house built with my own commitment.
